Bipolar Check-In #97

New one!

Ooo. * looks around, sniffs*. Smells new! Thank you.

Thanks for the new thread

Just relaxing after getting off the treadmill. Listening to music now, will read more before bed. Already finished another book. Have read 43 books this year so far. My focus was terrible for the first 3 quarters of the years so I didn’t finish many books then.

I remember back when my focus was really good years ago I’d read anywhere from 70-100 books a year.

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Just having an amazing time with my bestie. We went to a Waffle House this morning for breakfast and then went to an AA meeting. Then we went to my place and did one of my workshops and then went to Cracker Barrel and got our Thanksgiving meals - it was really good, green beans, sweet potato, stuffing, turkey and gravy, cranberry sauce and a nice pumpkin pie, she never had pumpkin pie before and she loved it!

We had a really amazing time doing our workshops and bonding, I have never had a great true friend like this in my life. It's so hard to find a good woman friend to bond with, and I feel like I have really lucked out. We have our laptops out right now, and we are both writing after a fun filled day. We may write together all night because she is sleeping over.

I did something Really stupid now I'm responsible for making 2 15 yr olds Christmas when I have very little money.

It was a long long day. The Food was amazing. My wife worked really hard on dinner. She over did it and now she’s in bed in pain. Neither she nor I slept more than 2 hours last night. Our daughter got us up at 8:30 for the parade and breakfast casserole. We just got food put away in fridge.

It rained most of day and the temperature was in the high 60’s. Tomorrow morning it’s supposed to drop to the 40’s.

I pray that I sleep tonight. I’m off the Doxepin again and back on trazedone. The insomnia’s been a big problem recently. I’m sure it’ll eventually get resolved.

As we get older and loose more loved ones, there’s more reason to lament during certain holidays. I found myself thinking of missing loved ones. But the new memories help offset the sad ones. Today I really missed my dog Max. He’s been gone about 18 months. He was 16 when he passed. He loved Thanksgiving food and family time.

I’m still pretty jacked up on sugar and caffeine. I haven’t taken my night meds yet let alone the sleeping pill. So it’s just a little tv time before bed.

I hope everyone had a good day. I know holidays are tricky.

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To all of those who celebrated today, I hope it was a good time! I’m thankful my holiday went better than expected.

My mood has been manageable these past two days. It has been the worst at night.

Med talk:



Still waiting on this package to arrive and still not 100% sure which one it is!

I stayed back at the hotel hacking like crazy. My mom brought me back a plate and it was kind of gross but maybe it was just because I ate it cold. They had roast which was pretty rare. Now raw. Just the way roast is supposed to to be but cold it’s kinda nauseating. The mashed potato’s had mayo or something in them. The turkey tasted off. But my uncles pumpkin pie was good as normal.

Now I’m on the foldout couch feeling sick.1 need to get a few things from the store but I’m not going into any retail store. There’s this chicken joint I want to try.

I said that **** tasted off.

I managed to survive Thanksgiving without having to leave early! Yay! I am proud of myself. Now I'm just in bed, trying to get warm. The exact area I live is right in the center of the path of the polar vortex. We're going to freeze! I'm happy I'm somewhat winter attire prepared!

We all woke up at noon this morning! Holy cow. I never get that much sleep. I slept for nine hours, when usually I'm four to five hours. It felt really good.

I was thinking this Thanksgiving of all the things I'm thankful for. It made me VERY happy. 😊 I have many things to feel grateful for.

My package arrived and it is the pearl clutch handbag for my wedding. It’s EXQUISITE. It surpasses all my wildest expectations. I am so happy!

@Crazy Hitch I can relate. I’m on Risperdal and have gained a lot of weight over past 2 years. I know it’s frustrating. I hope your med change helps.

@LadyShadow I’m glad you’re enjoying the holiday with your friend. That’s awesome! Sounds like a really nice day.

@raspberrytorte I hope you stay warm. It’s great you were able to sleep for 9 hours.

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Problem is now I’m second guessing the abilify too because it’s an antipsychotic

I can’t sleep. The lights are on and Seth Myers is blaring. I am also insanely thirsty. Like lithium type thirst. I haven’t been this thirsty in a year at least. And it’s hot and I just hate hotels. I’m sleeping on one bed and my brother is in the other one. My mom is sleeping on the pull out couch which I tried sleeping on but it’s a spring mattress which dug right into my knee and it hurt like hell. I’m also still coughing a lot.

But yeah. I’m going to go chug some more water

@Crazy Hitch Abilify caused weight gain in me. I’m on 30 mg of it, but it’s been so integral to getting my psychosis to stop and keeping my mood stable that I don’t really mind the weight gain as much plus I’m doing things to offset it like healthier eating and exercising.

On the other hand I never gained weight while on lithium. So everyone’s body reacts differently

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Good morning. I woke up at 4:30am. Went to bed around midnight. Can’t get back to sleep.

I think I’m ordering my meds for delivery today instead of going to the pharmacy to pick them up. It’s Black Friday and the bus that goes to the CVS I go to is also a on direct route to the Walmart super center. That bus is packed on normal days, I don’t even want to imagine what it’s gonna be like today. Would rather not get stuck in an extremely overcrowded bus.

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Slept 9 hours too! It must be 9 hours night, lol. I had kind of a broken sleep, but I managed. I am wondering if the settings on the CPAP are causing that now - I am thankful it isn't blowing a bunch of air in my face now. My bestie is getting ready to leave - I wish I was able to stay up later with her last night, but I was so exhausted because I was up at 5:30am yesterday.

I am feeling really good today though - up really early and going to spend a day to myself. I don't know if there will be any Black Friday deals, but I am going to check.

I can't believe how much of an amazing Thanksgiving it was, this time last year I was in a psych hospital out of my mind - I didn't even think I knew it was Thanksgiving. Be careful at taking yourself off of Lithium @Crazy Hitch - that's the reason I had such a crazy manic episode last year, because I took myself off the Lithium.

Got my $26000 bill to sit in a room with shyt stains all over the place, not talk to my awol provider, and eat cold scrambled eggs mixed with egg replacement against my will for 15 days (well, I wasn’t allowed to eat the eggs two of those) (they split it up into several invoices and I reached my lifetime ip limit for insurance coverage).

Fell back asleep for a bit. Ended up getting a total of 6 hours 47 min. Getting on the treadmill today. Yesterday I did 30 min at an incline of 4 and today I’m doing 45 min at an incline of 4.

I’m gonna eat some oatmeal. Enjoy some decaf coffee and listen to music till I do that.

If I really feel up to it I’ll do another 15 min on the treadmill later tonight. Totaling 1 hour. That’s probably what I’m gonna do as I have nothing else going on today.

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Update: I ended up doing 30 min on the treadmill at an incline of 4. I overestimated myself because by time I finished that I knew there was no way I’d do 1 hour. I might be able to get an extra 15 min in later. But I’ve made improvements. Before this I was very sporadically doing the treadmill 2-3 times a week max and many times I’d skip several weeks entirely. So this is an improvement. Doing it daily now and upping the incline from zero to 4. Just gotta take it one step at a time and not get ahead of myself

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Good morning! I slept well too, around 8.5 hr.

My life is pretty boring to report on these days as I'm pretty stable. I did the usual: took a 5.5 mi walk, showered, had breakfast, read with the SAD lamp, and painted a picture of a mango.

I'm definitely staying away from spending and shopping today & cyber Monday due to my tendency to overspend. My daughter is hard to buy for anyway, and H usually buys her gifts. She has her 18th birthday coming up on Dec. 14 The time went by SO fast! I remember thinking when my daughter was around 3 weeks old that it was such a weight and huge responsibility to care for her, and that 18 years of caring for a child was going to be a long, long time. But really, it's way too short!

Mango painting:

@Blueberrybook I understand. In a blink of an eye they’ve grown up. It’s so mind blowing.

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I get it. My daughter is 42 and has two of her own who are growing up way too fast. My grandson just became a teenager! It’s an awesome responsibility.

Ugh, the pharmacy just sent a text that they are closed! More and more they are unreliable since they got bought out. I asked at the time if it would change anything but they said no. Now there’s only one pharmacist and if she is sick or takes the day off the pharmacy closes. There have been a number of closings. This time I need my stomach meds! Without them I can’t keep food down. I ordered them on Monday. Wednesday I got notice at 6 pm that they were processing them. Then Thursday they were closed for thanksgiving. Today they were supposed to be open, but they are closed. Another change is that they are no longer open on weekends. They’d better be open Monday but it’s a bad weather day! So I don’t know and Monday is the last day I’ve meds for.